The truth is that you’ll never get what you want unless you work for it.
The truth is that you’ll never be happy unless you look for it.
The truth is right in front of you but you have to reach for it.
We don’t have a future together. We only have right here, right now. To the ego, that’s incredibly depressing. But to recognise the utter preciousness of this moment liberates me from the need to possess or control you. In this timelessness, we truly meet. Love is the disappearance of time, the disappearance of the story of ‘relationship’. And then true relationship is possible.
My dad has cancer
And I’m so depressed and I don’t want to be depressed, I never thought I would be depressed again. It makes me realize how insanely happy I’ve been this past year until this happened. I don’t know who to talk to, and people around me don’t understand how much it’s affecting me and seem to expect me to stay positive and go on as if everything is normal. I’m a very emotional person and i cant stay positive and i can’t stay strong and that is making me feel like a failure. Mostly I am terrified about how this is going to affect my relationship. I haven’t been able to talk to my boyfriend and I don’t want to see him because for the first time ever, being around him makes me feel more alone and sad. But I love him so much. I want to be happy so bad but I feel like it’s impossible. I feel like I’m sinking and I can’t do anything about it.